I'm happy that we finished half of a seemingly critical year. I don't know what to expect tomorrow as we start July, I'll do my best to start it in silence.
But I have stilled and quieted my soul; like a weaned child with its mother,
like a weaned child is my soul within me. (Psalm 131:1)
"Be still, and
know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in
the earth." (Psalm 46:10)
I'm a talker. I talk, talk, talk too much. It has quite made me in a lot of trouble, but that makes me who I am. *sigh* I have to worry about something, nag about something, or my life ain't complete. Yes, my beloved, I am a worryaholic... in recovery.
I haven't known the value of silence. I even used to pray at 4:30 in the morning before going to school and take it as my 'quiet time'! Now I refer them as the 'evangelical quiet time'. I don't know why. On Mondays, Wednesdays, and some Fridays, that was my breather of prayer. Now, I can take time throughout the day. Better!
But I have found my ways. A post called "He doesn't speak" in a random blog made me reconsider. I thought that you had to do the talking while He listened (He's a great therapist!), but shutting up for my God was partially in my agenda. But, at times, we're gonna have to go 50/50 for Him. Another song, "Word of God Speak", by MercyMe, has also introduced me in this novelty which is not reserved for 'evangelical quiet times' only. Another blog post named "Being Still", by Called Her Blessed -she's my favorite blog!- also helped me realize the importance of silence. The list can keep on and on... But I've put up on not doing the silence thing for fear of falling asleep. (And I do!)
But, as I sat on my bed, I did my best not to talk. I closed my eyes, and did my best to think about God. As always, I fell asleep. In church -prayer service-, even though I arrived late -I don't drive yet- I reminded myself of this verse. So, I did my best in shutting up. But this means to shut up MY MIND! Oy vey!
The silence thing is sooo vexing! Meanwhile, I'll do my best to keep quiet as I enter my God's presence and do like Mary Magdalene did, not like Martha: contemplate His grace. On bed, on church, on school, even on the computer, and in myself, God can make us awe in love.
SHhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
I haven't known the value of silence. I even used to pray at 4:30 in the morning before going to school and take it as my 'quiet time'! Now I refer them as the 'evangelical quiet time'. I don't know why. On Mondays, Wednesdays, and some Fridays, that was my breather of prayer. Now, I can take time throughout the day. Better!
But I have found my ways. A post called "He doesn't speak" in a random blog made me reconsider. I thought that you had to do the talking while He listened (He's a great therapist!), but shutting up for my God was partially in my agenda. But, at times, we're gonna have to go 50/50 for Him. Another song, "Word of God Speak", by MercyMe, has also introduced me in this novelty which is not reserved for 'evangelical quiet times' only. Another blog post named "Being Still", by Called Her Blessed -she's my favorite blog!- also helped me realize the importance of silence. The list can keep on and on... But I've put up on not doing the silence thing for fear of falling asleep. (And I do!)
But, as I sat on my bed, I did my best not to talk. I closed my eyes, and did my best to think about God. As always, I fell asleep. In church -prayer service-, even though I arrived late -I don't drive yet- I reminded myself of this verse. So, I did my best in shutting up. But this means to shut up MY MIND! Oy vey!
The silence thing is sooo vexing! Meanwhile, I'll do my best to keep quiet as I enter my God's presence and do like Mary Magdalene did, not like Martha: contemplate His grace. On bed, on church, on school, even on the computer, and in myself, God can make us awe in love.
SHhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
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