Even in a moment, a brief flicker that is life, things seem to go to waste. Time just runs past you like it never does. You can’t keep track of it, ‘cause it’s worthless! You just have to keep living!
And there are the rules.
And there are the emotions.
And there is common sense and logic.
And there is convenience.
I want to break all the rules.
I want to say all my emotions.
I want to forget common sense and logic, even for a brief moment.
I want to forget what’s convenient for me to do, and do just what’s in my heart.
I want to express what I can’t express.
I want to forget about numbers and figures, names and dates.
I want to forget about applying for college or leadership programs or honor memberships or worship conferences (though I would be delighted!).
I want to forget about choosing to stay in America or go back to Puerto Rico.
I want to forget guilt and terror, sin and pain.
I want to pray with no shame, distractions or random sleeping bouts.
I want to ignore this mortal reality and live in an eternal one.
I want to forget being uncomfortable about seeing Christian events/CDs/DVDs when around with my family…and stop thinking about “lone wolves” and shout for what I am even MORE than what I do now.
I want to live my life to reflect a true religion, yet I want to enjoy it as best as I can.
I want Jesus, and I want Him now.
And I know that He wants me, with no need to, now.
