My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. (John 17:20-21, NIV)
You may remember by now that this blog started on The Commonwealth, back in June. There may be some certain relics of the past (e.g.: the logo, rough translations) that are still maintained in my heart, but it has been ever more lonely since it broke up. (Please recognize, it is a forum.) One of my fears of starting solo was that who would dare to read my posts, outside of my friend back in Puerto Rico and very few people? Another question was, will I see (or…play?) them again?
While trying to draw out the overdramatic tone, I found one of my friends on NationStates. (That is where all started.) He obviously recognized me, and I asked him about other players. He responded with a “some are still active” prompt. (There was a question left unanswered, about the blog, but it is not important now.) I see his “region”, but I also see his forum. (This is the depressing part, so please brace yourselves!) I was depressed when I saw the forum; some of the people that we knew were there. Of course, I checked out other forums with names that I do know familiar. In a sense, I resented for the people to break up and choose sides; even more, I resented not writing for that same group. (This is why I asked him, with not so much exact wording, if I move to his forum, will the blog be revived?)
The discord let me to John 17, when Jesus prayed for unity between everyone. It was hard for Him to pray to His father to be restored, lest dealing with His death. Yet in all purposes, He prayed for them to be together in grace and love. Jesus knew that His people will suffer (we still do, some more, some less, some emotionally and personally), and that His direction of staying TOGETHER is invariably needed.
Certain is today, that we are more than together. The cries of Jesus to His father will never die, yet the world hinging on fights and wars too much…Where are we headed? For now, I cannot choose where to go. But I do choose to love my God with all my heart, strength and soul, and my brother as myself. Earth is too broken beyond repair, but Jesus will take care of that; let me look forward to Heaven, let me see a whole people singing…
