I have been struggling with a boil on the back of my head for a week now. It’s becoming more painful, and I can’t take it out. I told someone it was a stress mark (or I thought it was that or the former); proves that I was wrong, it is a boil. (I have nothing personal against Susan Boyle; she has a tremendous voice, and who doesn’t love comebacks!?) Such disconcert makes me guilty, more than I am for my past sins (if I ever sinned with the declaration), but it does make it more painful to bear.
I woke up way early when my sister told me that the boil was growing bigger. Of course, she wouldn’t resist the temptation to touch it. The worst point is, did I actually sin sometime? Yes, but is this punishment? (though I take a skeptical view of karma?) What I do know is that sickness and death came as result of punishment. And thus…
To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps. (1 Peter 2:21, NIV)
I found this verse in a MySpace app on my profile. (Perfect…) I know that the context means of servitude and suffering and submission for slaves… but what does it have to do with a boil in my head!? Look, I don’t want to creep you out, but it’s growing every stinking’ day, and I can’t turn my neck without pain and I can’t take off from it…
Maybe this is what God called me. If we haven’t even been close to the point of shedding our own blood (Hebrews 12:4), this small suffering should be overlooked for the greater things in life… er… eternity, so shall I speak. Mind you, please notice that I’m also struggling with many other things not as relevant to mention, but enduring one more day without actually leaving the house(this is a reference to the snow storm in Maryland) and get a doctor and open it up will get me mad!
Then again, what if His will is for me to trust in Him? Just that: “I will get the boil out for you, but I want you to trust on ME for health, for ME on your classes, for ME for peace…” (I have been getting stressed out, and these boils pop out of nowhere.) I do not know when this boil will pop out (if it pops out), but something I know: I delight in my weaknesses, even if boils don't count.
Look, the sun is coming up!...
