The Yoke of Worry

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" (Matthew 6:25, 27)

Worrying is the most human of things.

I have had the knack of trying to live like an adult, taking responsibilities I shouldn’t have in the first place. First of all: I’m a teenager, going to 16 in September. Knowing that I think differently than what most think (nothing personal), it can be a drag to try to stop people from doing what they want to do, be it the most bad of things.

Last night was kinda tough. Waking up at about 6 in the morning, I had a youth group service in church to attend. After 10:30 PM, it was crazy! I ended up nearly crying by Crystal Shawanda’s “You Can Let Go” on YouTube because of details too personal tell at nearly 4 in the morning. I even missed the Sotomayor swearing-in!

Being a Christian –and young-, it’s kinda hard to get the fact that there’s no reason to have the yokes of other people. (I’m cut out to be a pastor someday.) I don’t have to get the cross of my 17-year-old sister, my mom and my dad (who’s still in Maryland), knowing that I have to worry for MY OWN STUFF. Then, what’s for me to worry?

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."(Matthew 10: 28-30)

This is what I’m supposed to do. Cling out all my fears, my hopes, my desires, my family’s love, all in Him, Jesus Christ. Then why do I cling with it? Have I not trusted the Lord that gave me life, salvation, family and food? Have I not seeked Him as I’m supposed to?

Or is it that I need to stop stepping down their lives and just focus on myself? Just focus on my separate life, instead of stalking them to do good, not bad? Shouldn’t I let them decide how they want to live?

Lord, let me realize that they should live their own life; I should live mine, and nothing more. Let the yoke of my surrender come to You. I put my family in Your arms, be glorified in Your name… AMEN.